Tuesday, February 14, 2017
New Family, New Home
So if some of you have been following our baby updates, we shared that our current home has gone under foreclosure. We realised that if we waited to be evicted, it wouldn't be very good timing. So we decided to pursue finding a home and we found one!
Before talking about the new home though, I wanted to share with you a bit of the process of our decision to move. The reality is that there was a high chance that we could have stayed. However, when we first got the news of foreclosure, it got us to look at where we were at in our life situation. We asked ourselves, is our time in this home finished?
One of the things we need to remember is that this home we are in is not ours. It's God's. God gave us this perfect home which allowed us to do 4 years of incredible ministry through it. It allowed us to host students and friends well all the while paying a very low rent.
As we prayed over this situation, we couldn't help but feel that with the news of April bring pregnant, God was also calling us to step into faith and finding a new home. What this mean was not easy for us. It meant financial instability, more inconvenience, and choosing into community living with another couple. The cost is indeed greater but I believe that as we are faithful to God's calling and commands, He will be more faithful to us.
For the next 2 years, starting March 1st will be the beginning of a whole new way of life for April and I. We have decided to move in together with another couple with a 9 month old daughter from our church. Together, we were able to find a home that is not far from our current one. The rent is a bit higher but combining our resources and income of both families, we were able to afford it. This is new territory for most people so your prayers will be greatly appreciated as we learn to navigate our new lives together.
The Parable of the Suits
"Wait?! Why does she get to just drop the ball in the bucket and I have to take the shot blindfolded?! That's not fair!!", said the student who just witness an injustice in the game.
"So what made this not fair then?", said the host.
"Well, the other person had no rules to make the shot while I had to take it blindfolded and from far away. It was all determined at random!" said the student.
"I'm afraid this is how privilege works. We don't get to choose our privilege at birth. It has all been predetermined by society that certain people are going to have more privilege than others.", said the host.
"Ok, I see, but what do all these different suits represent then?" said the student curiously.
"Hearts represents a person who has privilege and has no barriers to achieving success or opportunities.
Clubs represents a person who has less privilege but there are a little bit of challenges that they need to face. This could be representative of a model minority.
Diamonds represents a person who may have a physical or mental illness/disability that prevents them from achieving success or having opportunities.
Spades represents a person who may be facing systemic opposition weather in the form of laws created or even society and having people physically standing in their way. This could be represented of the Indigenous people, refugees, or immigrants." explained the host.
"This is a really good clear example of privilege. Thank you for this. This was very educational.", said the student.
"Your welcome, I'm glad you enjoyed it! If you are interested, come check out our bible studies and our Blind event. We as IVCF SFU are trying to wrestle and act on what it means to fight against injustice." said the host.
"This really interests me, I'll see if I can check it out. One other question though, do I still get a chocolate bar for trying?, said the students with hopeful eyes.
"Actually, you don't get one. The reason is that as sad as it may be, society still rewards those who get the ball in the bucket and the reality is... the majority of them are the privileged. You didn't get the ball in the bucket, so you don't get a chocolate bar." said the host.
The student looked with disbelief that she still couldn't get a chocolate bar and walks away both sad and questioning in her heart.
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I have to say, this was the most fun I have had in my 7 years of tabling for New Student Outreach (NSO). The invitation we offered to students walking by was that they could win a full chocolate bar by simply throwing a ball in a bucket. The only catch was that they needed to draw from a deck of cards that determined what situation they needed to make the throw in.
Each suit represented a different scenario:
Hearts ♡ - No rules or restrictions apply to you, take the shot from anywhere you want.
Clubs ♣ - You need to make the shot 10 ft away.
Diamonds ♢ - You need to make the shot 10 ft away and blindfolded.
Spades ♠ - You need to make the shot 10 ft away and someone is standing in front of you to block your shot.
So as the students looked forward to the opportunity to win a chocolate bar, they were given these conditions and attempted to make the shot. Often, the ones who didn't draw a heart missed while the majority of the ones who drew hearts made it in.
The rest of the time, the dialogue usually explained the rest of what happened. What was interesting this year though was that 90% of the people that came to the table weren't Christians. Some even came back because they wanted their friends to try and win a chocolate bar. However, what was different this year is that IVCF became a place where people from all walks of life could talk and relate to.
I can't say that people are coming to IVCF more but, what we did was vastly unique to any other club on campus and that they will most likely remember this exercise as they wrestle with their own privilege.
Upcoming Events and Prayer Requests
Upcoming Events
Praise Item
- BC Staff Days - Feb. 15-16
- The Yuen's are Moving! - March 1
- Blind (Outreach Event) - March 2
- BC Prayer Breakfast - March 24
Students & Campus
- Pray for Alan Thorimbert as for the last 8% of his fundraising.
- Pray that God would give the student leaders perseverance to keep following Jesus in the midst of exams.
- Pray for the students as they wrestle with what it means to release their individualism to love people.
- Pray for our outreach BLIND that we can fill the space with 100 people
- Pray for the weeks of invitations leading up to the event.
- Pray for the follow-up after the event.
- Pray for the artists who will be performing at the event.
- Pray for my fundraising as I am about $500/month short this year.
Personal
- Pray for my continued growth as a leader.
- Pray for a smooth transition in moving for April and I.
- Pray for April in her work as she did not pass her first performance review
- Pray for our unborn daughter that God would continue to protect her and April.
- Pray for both April and I as we continue to journey together in marriage and into parenthood.
- Pray for the transition into community living.
Praise Item
- Praise the Lord for God's provision for a new home!
- Praise the Lord for the deep change and transformation students are encountering through scripture.
Monday, November 28, 2016
God Recycles Sin
Just about everyone knows this about me, but I used to be a pretty intense athlete in Judo. I have my black belt, trained for 13 years, competed for 8 years, and coached for 8 years. However, as Christian athletes have to wrestle with the idol of perfection and following Jesus at the same time, I didn't know how to hold that in tension. I followed Judo and perfection instead of Jesus. In the end, I decided to formally retire from Judo during my prime (age 23) and continued to serve Jesus outside of my athletics.
During my first VUP experience, I remember 2 distinct things.
1. I have a deep heart for Justice
2. God Recycles Sin - Al McKay
Little did I know, 7 years later, these two pieces that I learned from VUP has created an incredible opportunity for ministry.
Over this past month, I started to participate in an SFU Recreation program called Police Judo. I stumbled upon this a few years back but I was unable to go so it slipped out of my mind. Abraham, an SFU alumni, started to go and we began having Judo conversations. During these conversations, I could feel the excitement welling up in my heart again. I knew I needed to check it out.
I went and introduced myself to the coaches and just watched the practice to familiarise myself with how they teach. Police Judo uses traditional Judo foundations but applies it practically in law enforcement.
The following week, I decided to fish out my Judo Gi from storage and go to practice. I was introduced to two black belts of Police Judo, who are police officers themselves, and they welcomed me. I sat there seeing a lot of white belts and lower belts around me and no one really talking to me. Class started and then the instructor started off the class by introduced me and honoured me in front of the whole class. Aftewards, the tone of the students changed and I was in conversations with practically everyone. All throughout practice, I was only seeing myself as a student yet the instructors were giving me coaching authority. It didn't matter that I was out of practice for 8 years, they still honoured me as a coach. After practice, I also asked what the fees were and they refused to take any fees from me because of my black belt. I felt deeply loved and respected.
The following week, I went as usual, however this week was different. The instructor asked me to take 20 min of the class to teach some of my techniques. I was both excited and terrified at the same time. Excited that I get to coach again and terrified if I have anything viable to teach anymore. I proceeded to coach and it was as if all of my techniques came flooding back into my mind and my body was moving on its own. People were having fun and everyone learned. An instructor of Police Judo from the Justice Institute then invited me to come and train with their officers on other times of the week.
This level of honour is something that I am not used to but I am really enjoying. When I was given this honour in the past, it would easily go to my head and I would flaunt it in front of everyone. This time is different though, I am constantly praying that God would keep my heart humble and the honour and respect that my black belt and experience offers me, gives me significant opportunities in this Police Judo world.
- When students ask what I do and I share that I am a campus minister, they seem to have even more respect for me.
- All of these students and instructors have a deep sense of Justice so there may be an opportunity for me to resurrect the Justice Bible Study.
- I get to be connected with Police Officers in Vancouver which may give me connections to the Odd Squad for future VUP experiences.
It has only been a month and I am seeing some of these opportunities start to bubble up.
- Imagine if I am able to train with the same students 2 times a week for years. The opportunity to share the Gospel is huge in this.
- Imagine if I these students choose to explore God's heart for Justice and they come out with a bigger perception of Justice. What if these students who are seeking after a Kingdom value of Justice go and become our future law enforcement? What would our society look like after that?
I don't know what God's plan is for this but what I do know is the sin of idolatry in Judo has now been recycled in my life. It is not directed to myself, but to God and for furthering His Kingdom.
God indeed, loves to recycle our sin.
SFU Surrey Gets Upgrades!
Walking to SFU Surrey, I noticed that something was quite different. I looked around and saw that there was a significant increase in law enforcement. I walked into the campus mez to claim our typical spot for prayer only to find out that there was a stage, multiple cameras, and security personnel everywhere.
I asked myself, "What the heck is going on here?"
With this question in mind, I find a spot to have our prayer meetings from which we continue to pray for this SFU event. After an hour, Sam and I find out that the events at SFU Surrey was welcoming some exciting news for the campus from our Prime Minister, Justin Trudeau.
I stood on the floor above excited and confused on why our Prime Minister is at SFU Surrey. Not only was Justin there, SFU's president (Andrew Petter) and our Province's Premier (Christy Clark). Something big was happening to have all three of these leaders in one place.
As the speeches rolled through, Justin then came to speak. He shared about how SFU has been a significant leaders in Mechatronics and technology advancement in Canada and announced that the Federal Government will give $45 million to help build a new research facility! Afterwards, Christy Clark spoke and pledged another $45 million from the provincial government bringing the total of $90 million being given to build this research facility.
This new research facility will be a part of the SFU Surrey Campus which will effectively double it's size over the 3 years. It will be the home of new classrooms, new facilities to advance research for Mecatronics engineering and also be the home of a brand new Energy Systems and Environmental Systems Engineering field of study.
This is a huge opportunity as it will effectively double the student population at SFU Surrey over the next 5 years. I don't know what IVCF's involvement will look like on the SFU Surrey Campus, I just pray that God will bring passionate students to take on the mantle of ministering to the Surrey campus and hopefully some staff may eventually make it there full-time.
Upcoming Events and Prayer Requests
Upcoming Events
Praise Item
- Worst Christmas Ever Christmas Party - December 1
- Emerging Leaders Module 2 - December 4-9
- Staff Retreat and Debrief - December 14-16
- Student Leadership Debrief - December 17, 18
Students & Campus
- Pray for Alan Thorimbert as for the last 8% of his fundraising for the year.
- Pray that God would give the student leaders perseverance to keep following Jesus in the midst of final exams.
- Pray for my fundraising as I am about $1000/month short this year.
- Pray for the transition of new leadership to next semester.
Personal
- Pray for my continued growth as a leader.
- Pray for both April and I as we continue to journey together in marriage and pregnancy.
- Pray for our living situation as it has become quite volatile. We will most likely need to move over the next few months.
Praise Item
- Praise the Lord for God's provision in the Community House!
- Praise the Lord for more full-time work for April this year.
- Praise the Lord for getting through the first trimester without any complications
- Praise the Lord for providing $500/month of new donors over this past month.
Friday, October 14, 2016
Simplifying Life
As some of you may have noticed, last year was a lot of themes around Lament. I spent time reflecting on this previous year and I noticed that if I continued to head in the same direction, I would burn out. Some things in my life needed to change.
It wasn't easy though. I fought and justified all the reasons why I needed to do more and to keep doing things like gaming. I used excuses that it's "restful" or "it's not that much more." Well, a lot of "it's not that much more" = "a lot!" It was tough and over this summer and into this fall, God has used many situations to strip me of my own pride. People like my Co-workers, Pastors, friends, and most of all my wife spoke truth into my life. Eventually, I couldn't ignore that I was heading towards the path to burnout.
The reason why I needed to simplify things in my life is so that I can be more effective in the things that really matter. Things like Marriage (Family), IVCF (Work), self care, friends, are to name a few. However, as any person who likes to say "yes" to good things. I realised how much I needed to let go of good things.
Over this summer and into the fall, I started simplifying my life:
- I stepped down from my roles and responsibilities of two committee's, focused around the Chinese Church, I have been a part of for the past 2 years.
- Stepped down from leadership at my church.
- Am not taking any preaching opportunities this year, instead inviting others who don't get the privilege and give them an opportunity to preach.
- Retired from gaming on my phone.
What I have picked up and am focusing on now is:
- More quality time with April
- Community Center membership with April to workout together
- Helping more around the house
- Being more present at my home church
- Nerding it out with my friends through the card game Magic The Gathering
- Spending more time being on the SFU Campus and hanging out with my fellow Applied Science students.
- Time to hang out with friends.
Me saying "No" to essentially good things has not only allowed me to say "Yes" to doing other good things for efficiently, it has left space now for others to say "Yes" to these good things.
Please continue to be praying for April and I as we look to simplify our lives for the purpose of being more effective in the things that Jesus has called us to do.
Upcoming Events and Prayer Requests
Upcoming Events
Praise Item
- Common Dinner - October 20
- IVCF Fall Fundraiser - October 22
- BC Staff Days - October 24-25
- Joint Retreat? (UVic, UBC, SFU) TBD - November 11-13
Students & Campus
- Pray for Alan Thorimbert as for the last 15% of his fundraising.
- Pray that God would give the student leaders perseverance to keep following Jesus in the midst of exams.
- Pray for my fundraising as I am about $1000/month short this year.
Personal
- Pray for my continued growth as a leader.
- Pray for both April and I as we continue to journey together in marriage.
- Pray that I would be motivated to exercise more.
Praise Item
- Praise the Lord for God's provision in the Community House!
- Praise the Lord for the investigatory bible studies springing up around campus.
- Praise the Lord for the restful vacation and safe journey to Taipei and Hong Kong.
- Praise the Lord for more full-time work for April this year.
Introducing Alan!
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| Alan, my new Staff Partner |
Alan graduated from Queens University with a Major in Classics. He's quite quirky and enjoyed good food. Some of his responsibilities on top of being my staff partner at SFU will be to start up a community house (which has already started!)
Currently, he is still in the process of raising his full support so he is on campus one day/week. Yet, even with him being on campus one day a week has allowed him to start leading an investigatory bible study with a Muslim student who has come to the community house.
Please join with the SFU Community and I as we pray for our brother to be fully funded. He is still in need of $500/month before being able to be full-time on campus.
Common Prayer & Scripture
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| Bible Study at the Community House |
Scripture and Prayer are key foundations to our Christian Faith, but if you see the reality of how we do church and fellowship, often prayer is the thing that is the first to go or we don't do enough of it.
This semester, we did something quite different and risky. Instead of having the traditional bible studies that are only full of Christians, we decided to let prayer shape our community.
After days at a prayer retreat, we all felt that we needed to pray more. So we decided to not formally offer bible studies at the beginning and lead multiple prayer meetings instead. The result was that our students are spending more time in their classmates and friends lives. It's bringing up more questions about faith and Jesus while creating a deeper longing and desire to be changed and transformed by Jesus for themselves. It is from this that 2 investigatory bible studies have been started with students. One is from a Muslim background and another who is Agnostic. With the potential of a 3rd one for a PhD Engineering student.
Please continue to join us and pray that we as IVCF SFU will have all things in common. Pray the common prayer meetings and pray for the common scripture that we would all be able to have "things in common" to be a witness to the SFU Campus.
Tuesday, July 12, 2016
Upcoming Events and Prayer Requests
Upcoming Events
Praise Item
- Vacation in Toronto - July 17 - August 4
- Preaching at Father's House - August 14
- Staff & Student Prayer Retreat - August 24 - 26
- Student Leadership Camp - August 26 - 31
Students & Campus
- Pray for all the SFU students post VUP as they discern how to integrate their experiences back into campus and life.
- Pray for our graduating students: Anika, Andy, Abraham, Christina as they are launched into the world
- Pray for Julianna as she is going to be in Montreal for the IVCF Internship.
- Pray for Alan Thorimbert with his transition to SFU and his fundraising.
- Pray for the Community House that they will be able to secure a place.
- Pray that God would give the student leaders and staff a vision for this upcoming year at SFU.
- Pray for my fundraising as I am about $1000/month short this year.
Personal
- Pray for my continued growth as a leader.
- Pray that April would be able to secure more full-time work in counselling.
- Pray for both April and I as we continue to journey together in marriage.
- Pray that I would be motivated to exercise more.
- Pray for the right timing in which God chooses to bless us with a family.
- Pray for continued support and discernment around our own respective ministries with the church.
Praise Item
- Praise the Lord that April and I are receiving new life and understanding of each other.
- Praise the Lord for the desire of the community house to come up.
- Praise the Lord for providing a new staff partner Alan Thorimbert
You Learned to Do "Nothing"?
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| Local's playing Chess and Chinese Chess at Carnegie Hall |
Some of you don't know this about me, but I love playing chess. My dad taught me when I was younger and I fell in love with it. I was even a part of the chess team for 4 years during high school.
Chess has been a bit of a lost hobby of mine. I miss it, but as I have done VUP, this passion for chess started to come out again. I remember going to Carnegie Hall, getting a $1 membership and borrowing a chess board. I would set up the chess board and sit an wait at one of these tables for a challenger. After about 5 minutes, someone came and started playing. After we play a game (which I often lost at), we set up again and play another round. Before we knew it, 2 hours have passed by. I don't necessarily know this person's name, but what I do know is that we shared a bond and connection over a common interest. I created space out of my "busy" schedule to simply be available to play a game of chess with someone. Did it lead anywhere? Maybe not, but in a world where we are forced to be "productive" with every part of our time, it's times like these that are often missed and are often needed the most.
This idea of doing "nothing" in the DTES is known as Stooping. Stooping is more from the word stoop which could either mean bow down (stoop to someone else's level) or the front porch of a house. We are using it for the later. The stoop is where people hang out to just be available to meet and talk with people who come by. So basically, it's less to do with doing "nothing" and more to do with being present in the places where you are. This is something that we did in excess during VUP this year.
My Stooping ground was at Carnegie Hall with all the chess guys. I would walk in at around 12:00 and there I would see about 4 of the same guys playing chess together each day. What I did was grab an open seat and simply just watch multiple games of chess (which some of these guys were incredible at), make the occasional comment, and laugh at the banter that was going on back and fourth. After a week, I became a familiar face and they started asking me questions and having some interesting conversations from those questions.
I'll say now, even if they didn't ask me a question, I would still do it. The reason being is because I just enjoy playing/watching chess and I also believe Jesus calls us to simply be present in people's lives. Being present doesn't mean you need to have everything planned or organised, sometimes being present just means that you need to be around for a longer period of time.
As we think about what we are doing on campus with regards to stooping. I feel that the community house has now been confirmed in our students hearts. This idea of stooping on campus not only means to be "like furniture" up there but some are responding to a deeper call to live up on SFU campus. This very act and decision flies in the face of the commuter mentality and I can only imagine what this faithfulness is going to translate to be this upcoming year.
Wait... Where are you taking me?
Jesus, full of the Holy Spirit, returned from the Jordan and was led by the Spirit in the wilderness
Luke 4:1
With the theme's of lament being very clear during VUP, I asked my friend Steve Schalm to see if he could come and share on being led by the Spirit and lead our prayer meeting. After much conversation and convincing, he agreed, but when the day came for him to come and speak, he came down with a mysterious sickness that took him right out for the whole day. I found myself in an awkward situation where I had little planned and organised and I needed to lead my VUP students on this prayer time.
This was a situation where I needed to be "led by the Holy Spirit." With the original plan not working, I needed to come to Jesus myself and ask "Where do you want to take these students?" I soon received from the Spirit that I needed to send the students out on a prayer walk to be aware and sensitive to where the Spirit is also taking them. After sharing stories and experiences of some crazy encounters of being led by the Holy Spirit, I gave them these instructions:
1. Break off into groups of 2
2. Go out together into the neighbourhood.
3. Pray as you walk and be open to where the Spirit is leading you.
4. This is most likely going to be weird.
After an hour, we came back and debriefed about the experience. To our surprise, we heard of stories on how the Spirit was leading students to walk in certain directions, go to locations, talk with women who are wearing green dresses, pray for specific people. These are all strange, I know, but they all had a reason. The group that followed the spirit in this way was led down an alleyway and found a couple of books that reminded them of their childhood. They were then led to the Sunday street market where they talked to two women. One of them they felt the Spirit compelling them to say she was beautiful. She responded by saying that she really needed to hear that. Another women they felt compelled to say that Jesus is with her and that she'll never be alone. They found out from her that she was going to be bedridden for the next month with no one around. From there, they offered one of the books that they found for her to read.
Can I logically explain how the Holy Spirit works? No, definitely not. What I do know is that we fill our lives so much with asking Jesus for things that we rarely take the time to listen to what He might be actually trying to say to us.
Campus Gathering 2016
This theme of being led by the Spirit kept coming up at Campus Gathering 2016. I had the privilege of hearing the origin story of the Korean Christian Fellowship (KCF) ministry. It started with a few faithful students who had a desire to see the lost found. These few students came together to pray... No intention, no plans, no agenda. Just to pray and be led by the Spirit. After a year, the few students grew to about 250. It's not about the numbers, but about the faithful following of where the Spirit is leading them.
My hope and prayer for the SFU campus is that our students would faithfully follow the Spirit's leading for them to be fully committed followers of Jesus Christ.
The Art of Lament
Reconciliation without lament cheapens hope.
To be deeply bothered about the way things are is itself a sign of hope.
It is crucial to remember that lament is not despair or a cry into a void. Lament is a cry directed to God. Lament is prayer.
Through lament we come to that hard place of knowing that we cannot "achieve" reconciliation. It is always a gift from God.
Reconciling All Things. Emmanuel Katongole & Chris Rice. Pg. 88, 89
During VUP, we started off the first week with the prophets. In general, the prophets talk a great deal about lament. Specifically around injustice that God's people are doing to each other. I remember as we were talking about being prophetic, students would be showing and displaying their dissatisfaction. Canadian things like:
"I don't want to disappoint people."
"I don't want to make people feel uncomfortable."
"That's not a nice thing to say."
As I listened to this along with about 10 other reasons, I realised that our millennial generation does not know how to be prophetic because there is an avoidance of lamenting, grieving, and truth telling.
The week progressed and we heard from numerous speakers and studied various passages. One passage that stuck out was from Jeremiah 29. I was shocked to hear that as we studied this, we landed on the reality that us as Canadians are more aligned with the Babylonians and in some ways, we are worse than the Babylonians. As we landed, I could see some of the distress and confusion in my students faces. Some of them started accepting this reality while others tried to talk about something completely different.
The following week, we focused on the life of Jesus. We wanted to go out of lament and into hope, but it seemed like the Holy Spirit had other plans for us. Crisis' came throughout the week that forced us to see and acknowledge the brokenness and privilege around us. Talks around sexuality and pornography were particularly striking. Instead of focusing on the life of Jesus, we had to come face to face with our privilege and lament over the brokenness that our Canadian and societal culture has caused to women and our indigenous brothers and sisters. Following these conversations and realisations, came tears, anger, frustration, personal repentance, corporate repentance, etc. Students and staff were in tears almost daily. They were calling each other to pray for them as they lamented over these tough realities.
The final week we focused on the movement of the Holy Spirit in the church. What we found interesting in this is that more crisis came up. Yet, this time it felt different. The students and staff chose to accept that things were broken. They embraced the sadness and felt the pain. Then, as they felt the pain, they turned to Jesus as the one that has authority over all of this brokenness. It was beautiful! A community of believers lamenting over injustice together and coming to Jesus together. This came out through prayer walks of being led by the Holy Spirit; The Beauty and the Brokenness Project in inviting our friends and families to experience the journey from lament to joy.
Even though the situations around us didn't change all that much. We came to a deeper sense of joy and hope in Christ's Gospel of Reconciliation for this world. The fact that we continue to lament and lament well has enabled us to receive true hope in Christ and what he died for.
I came out of VUP with a greater hope that as we (the millennial generation) learn how to lament well with our other brothers and sisters, it will enable us to be seeking a much deeper level of what this Kingdom of God is supposed to look like here on this earth.
Tuesday, March 1, 2016
From Loneliness to Solitude
I would have to say that these past 6 months, I have not been doing well. I was experiencing a great deal of tiredness and sadness. Feeling extremely burnt out and in a place where I just couldn't experience joy anymore. I know this was also tough for April too as she was wrestling with work and feeling quite helpless to help me but also frustrated that I am not well.
Thank goodness for this past week where we were able find space, away from each other, and come to Jesus personally. For me it was at Emerging Leaders where I remembered who Jesus was and the reason why I keep denying myself for His sake. I had to move from Loneliness to Solitude which physically, looks identical but are very different. Loneliness, Jesus is no where to be seen, felt, or heard. Jesus is absent. Solitude on the other hand is the constant presence of Jesus.
I also came to a place where there was a great deal of unforgiveness in my heart towards April. I didn't realize how much it was affecting me until I was practicing the discipline of Sabbath and attempting to rest. I realized at that moment that this unforgiveness was one of the major barriers that was preventing me from loving my wife and also from resting. I repented right there and then.
During all of this, April was also going through a bit of a realization. She had multiple conversations with friends in which she shared her frustrations. It was then her friends were able to reflect back to her around some of her "unreasonable" expectations. She in expected me to be an intellectual (I'm not really one). She expected me to be a respectable leader and to be always well (which I am but I'm not always well). Over this week, these realizations she had, she was realizing how tough it was on me and she also had to come to a place of forgiving me and repentance of these places.
In short, we both had to repent of our unforgiveness of each other. This has been an answer to prayers of all our friends, family, and supporters, as well as our very one ones. It has only been a couple of days, but we've been experiencing a deeper sense of joy and peace for each other and we give Praise to Jesus for this experience.
We continue to welcome and covet your prayers and support. If you would like to hear more specific details on my Emerging Leaders and April's week, we would love to share it with you more.
Shattering Old Traditions and Rules.
A group of scientists placed five monkeys in a cage, and in the middle, a ladder with bananas on top. Every time a monkey went up the ladder, the scientists soaked the rest of the monkeys with cold water. After a while, every time a monkey would start up the ladder, the others would pull it down and beat it up. After a time, no monkey would dare try climbing the ladder, no matter how great the temptation. The scientists then decided to replace one of the monkeys. The first thing this new monkey did was start to climb the ladder. Immediately, the others pulled him down and beat him up. After several beatings, the new monkey learned never to go up the ladder, even though there was no evident reason not to, aside from the beatings. The second monkey was substituted and the same occurred. The first monkey participated in the beating of the second monkey. A third monkey was changed and the same was repeated. The fourth monkey was changed, resulting in the same, before the fifth was finally replaced as well. What was left was a group of five monkeys that – without ever having received a cold shower – continued to beat up any monkey who attempted to climb the ladder. If it was possible to ask the monkeys why they beat up on all those who attempted to climb the ladder, their most likely answer would be “I don’t know. It’s just how things are done around here.”
Every culture, church, fellowship, workplace, household, family, friends group, etc has its unspoken traditions and rules that they follow almost like the monkeys. Even we have unspoken traditions that we follow also. These rules and traditions are set in place for most likely good purposes. But when do these rules and traditions become hindrances for us as we try to follow Jesus and bring the Kingdom of God to this earth?
When I came to SFU 5 years ago, I would hear stories of SFU being the campus of death or it's really hard to do ministry up there. In the IVCF realm, I would hear from staff not so good things about the SFU campus. Things like:
- No one from SFU would go to MARKwest
- No one is interested in GUPs or the Internship
- No one will go to Urbana
- It is impossible to do community there because it's a commuter campus.
As I heard these reasons from both my friends and peers, I kept wondering, "Why?" Why is it so difficult? So I went in with the mindset of, "I'm going to prove you ALL wrong!" I'll be honest, I thought I was going to be doing great things, and God did some incredible things in and through me. But, I don't attribute these following growth and numbers to what I have done. Fortunately for me, God seemed to have the same mindset in proving everyone wrong. All the glory to God.
In response to the tradition of not attending MARKwest:

2011 - 7 SFU students went to MARKwest
2012 - 12 SFU students went to MARKwest2013 - 20 SFU students went to MARKwest
2014 - 21 SFU students went to MARKwest
2015 - 30 SFU students went to MARKwest
2016 - 45 SFU students hoping to go to MARKwest
Urbana 2015 - 20 SFU students went to Urbana
In response to GUPs
- 2011 - 1 SFU student went to China
- 2012 - 2 SFU students went to VUP
- 2013 - 1 SFU student went to VUP
- 2014 - 2015 - 0 SFU students went on GUPs
- 2016 - 6 students are applying to go on VUP & 1 student is doing a DTS with YWAM.
In response to the commuter campus and the lack of community
- We are going to be doing everything on campus now.
- Fall 2016 - The first IVCF SFU Community house is hoping to be on campus.
Looking at these numbers and the quality of students that I have the privilege of being with. I think God is trying to say something here to me and also everyone who is reading this. I think God is saying that whatever rules, traditions, mindsets, expectations, systems, etc, God is not bound to these things. God is above and beyond these things that we tell ourselves to believe and I believe, he LOVES proving us wrong and showing how narrow-minded we really are. Even when I look at these numbers, I realize, God is going to prove me and everyone wrong again.
I believe that this is ONLY the beginning. I look forward to sharing with you stories of people students coming to faith monthly, weekly, even on a daily basis! I look forward to sharing with you how the SFU campus culture is being shaped by God's work through the IVCF Community. God is not done yet. He is only beginning!
This old mindset of SFU is dead now and has no right to be here anymore. God is choosing to use faithful students, staff, and donors (you), and he wants to show each of us and the world what He is capable of doing and that He is worth following.
My dear friends and family, I am happy and honoured to be a part of God's mission and I hope that you feel the same way knowing that you are sowing into building the Kingdom of God at SFU through your prayers and financial support. Keep praying, keep supporting, and pray some more, because God is not done with this. He is only beginning.
Why Did I Say "Yes" to VUP?
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| Katie (Left) in transit with her friend Mary (Right) |
Prior to Urbana, I hadn't even considered VUP as a possibility. I found it an intriguing opportunity that would be great for others and a small potential that probably would never come about for myself in future years. I had plan, a two year plan to graduate as soon as I was able. Funnily enough, I have been making these semester by semester plans since moving out to Vancouver with God changing my plans for the better every single semester. It’s a lesson I've been constantly learning, but also constantly grateful for, because upon reflection, I can see the good that has come about. This summer’s plan was to find a co-op to be able to find a thesis supervisor so that I can begin my Honour’s thesis as soon as possible. The cascade of these events left no room for adjustment without having to extend my undergraduate career by another semester.
However, I felt convicted at Urbana of my unwillingness to release control over the coming summer. On the night of the prayer for the persecuted church, I could hear God’s voice saying “Will you not go?” It was not a voice of accusation nor was it demanding, but simply clear and full of authority. While I realize the proper response would've been to courageously and whole-heartedly say yes, my response was to meekly and hesitantly say “I will go”. My initial thoughts were to find an international missions trip; I had even attempted to find a bio-medically related co-op in short term missions, futilely trying to salvage my own plans while obeying God’s. Through some emails and discussions, those doors seemed to be continually shut and there were questions of “okay God, where am I supposed to go? I heard this call, but I don’t know where. Will you lead me?”
I recall seeing a gentleman at Production Way and to my shame, I had passed him a few times before without stopping. I felt God tugging at my heart strings again and I recalled the passage of the sheep and goats where the goats did not realize that they simply walked past the one whom they call Lord. I decided to approach him one day and to hear his story. Listening, praying, a gift of a coffee seemed so very small and I couldn't help but wonder once again “isn't there something more that I can do?”
Fast forward a few days later, I had one of my one-to-one meetings with Justin where he brought up VUP again. He looked me straight in the eyes and genuinely said “I think VUP would be really good for you”. After our discussion and learning more about VUP, it was time for intercessory prayer and we happened to move from our usual area in the Undergrounds to the West Mall Centre. After prayer had ended, we happened to bump into Anika who had previously to VUP before. The quote “coincidences are God’s way of remaining anonymous” comes to mind and the three of us realized that this was no simple coincidence. It was a beautiful opportunity to connect, to share about how God has worked in our lives in the past, and to pray for one another.
Through further prayer and discernment, I believe that God may be leading me to take part in VUP in order to broaden my understanding of community. Although all the other details of my summer are uncertain, I know that He already knows on how it will all work out. Knowing that He is a loving father that is in control, it brings a level of peace because His plans are good.
How Has Urbana Changed the Way You Live?
Benjamin Lau's answer to the question. How has Urbana changed the way you live?
There were two main things I learned and has changed the way I live.
During a session on unity, Michelle Higgens stated that “indifference is neither hate nor love”. We cannot be indifferent about the stories of this world. If we are to be family, we must listen to everyone’s story and engage. Coming back from Urbana we had a chance to debrief with our pastors about this topic and they really helped me understand that the first step in developing a community within our church is to be thankful of the current state of the people. Though I could easily point out all the things we could improve and made me ungrateful of where people were at. In order to love and be in unity, I realized I needed to first accept people as they are no matter where they are at in their walk. Through accepting people despite their inequities, I am now able to share my life and engage intentionally with them.
In another session about missions I was reminded that there are also times when we forget the true meaning of missions. “there are some who manufacture the heart for missions but miss the heart for Christ. Missions is not your life, Christ is! Missions is the overflow of your love for Christ” - David Platt. I realized I was once guilty of this. I began saying to myself “missions is our life” when I forgot that actually Christ is. By defining my life as Christ it made me love Him that much more. Without Christ everything I did was meaningless. God changes people from the inside first then it is outwardly expressed and the outward expression also contains missions. The outward expression of my love for Him has led to things that I would not normally do, like intentionally meeting new people and sharing things I wouldn't normally share.
Please continue to be praying for Ben as he pursues Jesus at SFU.
Spirituality Cannot be Borrowed.
It's hard to believe as I reflect back on my previous Urbana experiences and how God used each one of them. They have either changed my life or changed my perspective. In 2006, I received a calling from God to go overseas to work with water. The following summer, I went to Switzerland doing Aquatic Research. In 2009, I received a deep sense of healing in my identity as a person with a disability through Prayer Ministry. In 2012, I came to understand the authority and power of the Trinity through intercessory prayer. When you pray, things happen! If they don't, you will be unrecognisably changed and transformed!. Now, finally, in 2015, I came to understand and see the vastness of God's Kingdom and a MUCH broader perspective of what family is supposed to be and look like in God's Kingdom.
At the very moment Patrick Fung said this (see quote above), I realized that this is what I've been trying to do for my students my whole time on staff and during my IVCF years at the U of R. Every invitation, every mentorship meeting, every core witness meeting, it was for the purpose of hoping that each of my students would make their spiritual their own.
It was also encouraging to hear Patrick share of his own story of his 18 daughter wanting to go on missions, specifically to a place where they did not know Patrick Fung. This decision made by his daughter caused a lot of tension and anxiety with Patrick and his wife. Eventually, his daughter said that the reason why she wanted to go to a place where they didn't know Patrick Fung was because she wanted to stop borrowing her spirituality from him. At that moment, Patrick and his wife heard from God, "You decided to follow Me (Jesus) at the age of 18, now your daughter is 18 and she wants to follow Me. Are you going to be a hindrance to her?"
When I heard this story, I was shocked. Mostly because I am seeing an older asian man sharing his own personal struggles with his child going into missions, even though he is well into the life of mission. On top of that, I was amazed at his humility in dealing with the situation. As I thought about it more, I realized that in Patrick's daughter being faithful to following Jesus not only helped her make her spirituality her own but invited Patrick and his wife to do the same thing. They needed to trust in Jesus even more now with the care of their children.
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| IVCF SFU Urbana Team! |
After this Urbana, I have a deeper sense of clarity in the invitations I am giving for my students to follow Jesus. I have a better understanding of what the cost is for them culturally, socially, emotionally, and sometimes even physically to follow Jesus. I also know that despite the cost, it is absolutely worth it because Jesus deserves all of our love, attention and praise.
Please join me and pray with me for each of my students as they take this long journey in making their spirituality their own.
Upcoming Events & Prayer Requests
Upcoming Events
Students & Campus
Praise Item
- IVCF MARKwest Pacific Fundraiser - March 18
- Regina Donor Visits - March 24 - April 4
- MARKwest Pacific - April 29 - May 5
- VUP - May 8 - June 4
Students & Campus
- Pray for the SFU Interns (Alan, Sanjana, & Xenia) as they are in the interview process and discerning where to go to join staff.
- Pray for the MARKwest Pacific Fundraiser - Goal $4000.
- Pray for MARKwest Pacific Student Recruitment - Goal: 45 SFU Students.
- Pray for the new team dynamics and partnership with each other
- Pray for the on campus leadership and outreach events.
- Pray for my funding to be fully funded in monthly donations.
- Pray for our housing situation. There are some complications which may require us to move.
Personal
- Pray for my growth as a leader and mentor.
- Pray for me as I continue to network and connect with other Churches in the Lower Mainland.
- Pray for the Inter-Generational Dialogue between 1st and 2nd Generation Chinese Pastors.
- Pray for mine & April's relationship in our marriage and a deeper understanding of God's Love for each other.
- Pray for more opportunities and clients for April in her field of work.
- Pray for me that I will rest well during my Sabbaths.
- Pray for me that I will be exercising more regularly.
- Pray for the regular rhythms of time with God for both April and I
- Pray for wisdom and discernment around us being more missional in our everyday lives.
- Pray for April and I as we are doing more family planning.
Praise Item
- Praise the Lord for providing my full support in monthly donations
- Praise the Lord that April and I are receiving new life and understanding of each other.
- Praise the Lord for students not choosing fear but into faith.
- Praise the Lord for open ears for our leaders and their responses to deeper calls into faith.
- Praise the Lord 6 SFU students doing VUP this year.
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